Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Wednesday Rerun

Yesterday I was away from the computer all day- and today I have grand kids again. So, I decided to post an old favorite of mine. I'll hopefully be back on Thankful Thursday with something Fresh!

Your Memory Wallet    (Originally posted October 20, 2008)

I was reading this morning
where a woman's wallet was found
sixty years after she lost it.
Construction workers found the missing
wallet in the basement of the university
where the woman had attended in the '40's.
It was returned to her family.

This got me to thinking...

What if things in the past
could be returned to us?

And not just material things,
but memories and moments.
Is there a special day in your life
that you'd like to see and feel
and live again?

I can think of several.

I would like to have back
a hot summer day when my sister
Linda and I played Barbie's
in the shade.
I was about eight years old
and she would have been ten.
The grass was cool beneath our legs
and our imaginations were endless.
We had all day to play and laugh
and be ourselves.
I would look at her and say-
"Let's never lose this feeling.
Let's never let problems of

the real world find us."

And I would remember
what it was like to be carefree
and innocent.

I would like to have a day back
before my mother got sick.
A day when she was smiling
and cooking something great-
or hanging clothes on the line-
or laughing at TV.
She would brush my hair for me
as we sat on the couch
and I could smell her
talcum powder
and feel her soft hands.

And I would say,
"Mom, don't ever get old and sick.
Be here for me when my children
and grandchildren need you.
Let them know how wonderful
your love is."

And I would remember what
is was like to have a mother's love-
all warm and perfect.

I'd like to have the day back in high school
where I missed a step in Algebra class
and never again understood
formulas and fractions
and simple equations.
And I would say,
"Slow down and explain that,
Mr. Childers. I think I'm lost."
Then he would make it easy
to figure out.

And I would remember what
it was like to be smart with numbers
and not hate math.

I would like to have back
the day that I met my husband.
I would hold on to every moment
and memorize every word.
I would feel
for the first time in my life,
that sudden stir inside of me-
that electricity-that chemistry...
And I would say to him,
"I am going to marry you
and we are going to be happy forever."
I would relive the first kiss,

the first touch,
the first day we shared.

And I would remember what
it was like
to not be afraid of the future.

I would want the days back
when I gave birth to my children.
Even with the pain, I would want
to experience that awesome feeling
of seeing their beautiful crunched-up faces
for the first time,
of holding them in my arms
with their baby-lotion smell.
Their milky little faces looking up at
me after a feeding...
their perfect fingers and toes
and newborn cries.
And I would say to them,
"I love you, babies of mine.
I will love you forever and ever."

And I would remember how it feels
to know that
little lives depended on me.
And I would remember how
quickly they grow up-
and to make sure to relish the journey.

But, in the scheme of things-
I think we all know
our "memory wallets"
will never be returned.
That they are somewhere
in the basement of our minds
where the contents can
never be touched or felt again.

So, hang on to your wallet.
Spend whatever is in it wisely.
Fill it with lots of photos
and keepsakes
and smiles that will last
through times of tears.
Don't ever let hate or regret
squeeze into the folds.
Treasure it as though
it is full of gold and silver.

But, whatever you put into it,
be proud of it.
That way, if anyone ever finds it,
you will never be embarrassed
by what's revealed.

Tomorrow we will probably
want today back.

Savor the moments.
Look, listen, touch,
taste, and embrace your life.

Think about it.

What's in your memory wallet?


Cathy said...

Truly beautiful!

Beth Zimmerman said...

Okay ... now I'm feeling all mushy inside! That was truly beautiful, Rae!

Margaret Hall said...

Rae,...this was just beautiful..What a warm and relaxing post for us followers of you fab blog. I had a few tears, but they were good-memory tears. You have written this with such great love and one can tell that it comes directly from that wonderful heart of yours...
Thanks for sharing...
In my memory wallet, I think back to the birth of all 3 of my kiddos, all unique, all so very different, and I recall the high that I had those days that they came into the world...I would tuck into my wallet as well--the years of laughter that family and friends have shared..Don't think there is enough laughter in this ol' world..Too much hate and sadness..I'd tuck Ol' Turki, my doggie that went away...
Great post, bloggin' Buddie~!

sisterlinda said...

Have you ever changed purses or wallets and cleaned them out before you took them anywhere? I got to say mine gets a little messy...but in my memory wallet I will keep it just as it is. It is bulging and bursting at the seams but it is like my will find room to hold so much more! I cannot say that all my memories are smile memories...there are tears also. I wouldn't trade my wallet with anyone! It's gonna hold a LOT more memories before I leave this earth.

Ruth Teal said...

I like your blog! I'm following you and I am also taking part in the A-Z Challenge, I look forward to seeing your entries. RuthieTootieWishes

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